i feel like i am the only one trying to save this. its killing me. i just want to go back to how things were. i was the only one that caught your eye. i was your princess, your one and only. i don’t even know if you find me attractive any more. i havent been told im beautiful in quite some time, but you are so easy to tell another girl she is. i miss you. i miss us. that connection we had. i understood you and you understood me. i miss our friendship and our love. i miss joking, laughing, loving. i miss how excited you would get to talk to me. i miss being the only one to make you happy. i dont want any more tension. i just want to drop all the bullshit and start over with you. you built me up when i was completely broken and made me feel complete. we talked about our future and planned our lives together. now i’m unsure if we will even make it to next week. everyone says im crazy for continuing this but i know it will and can get better. I just need you to work with me. i need you now more than ever. dont you realize that? but i feel you drifting.